Baby’s day out
Today I spent the day with Addy and Aiden… We’re throwing a really big birthday party for our Aiden’s first birthday and had some last minute bits to get. I spent the whole day running around Aldi for our weekly shop, then running around Westfield, then running around the kitchen making dinner, it wasn’t until Aiden was in the bath that I felt like I hadn’t seen him all day even though he had been with me! I just felt like I missed him! Sometimes I feel like that when Addy is home and so I don’t have to deal with any nappies! It gives me a break and then I feel like I haven’t seen him all day… I know, crazy right!
I’ve recently stopped breastfeeding and I think it’s only just hit me that my baby is really growing up! He’s becoming so independent having recently just starting taking steps on his own. When Aiden was small our special bond was through breastfeeding. There was no one else on this earth that he would share that bond with than me. Because Aiden and I had this bond sometimes Addy would feel like he was at a disadvantage because he couldn’t calm Aiden as quick as I could for instance, and so to create a special bond between baby and daddy, Addy would read to Aiden and bathe him and change nappies because I knew all these little things were creating a bond between them. Aiden was delivered via c-section so at first I couldn’t do these things and then it became a nice break for me because we know how much of mummy’s attention baby’s want! Now that I’ve stopped breastfeeding I almost feel that there is a part of us missing.
It was our time to stop breastfeeding. Aiden was down to one feed a day and would have a few gulps before biting me! He still loves mummy’s kisses and cuddles which we share throughout the day but as he gets older there are always going to be parts of our relationship that changes and this was that first step. I’m sad to see our breastfeeding phase come to an end but I’m so excited for the next stage! Like hearing his little voice and having full on conversations with my boy. Plus whatever else the future holds for us! I know I will regret that one lol!